I honestly believe the depo shot is helping me with the chemo. I’ve had 4 rounds of chemo, soon to have my fifth. The first two were awful but the last two have mostly been fine. I still get super tired and weak but I have an appetite. I know the depo shot for a lot of people causes a crazy increase in appetite. I think it is beating the chemo and causing me to want to eat. Maybe I’m just crazy for thinking that but I don’t know. I was expecting the worst for the depo shot and yet so far it has just been perfect for me. I just recently got my second shot. I don’t have any spotting or period but that is probably more because of the chemo bringing on, usually temporary, menopause (I just kind of hope it isn’t permanent but at the same time I don’t know if I want to risk having more kids). My depression hasn’t increased which is pretty fucking amazing considering I have cancer and might die within the next five years. Just, none of the bad side effects other than appetite which for me is a good thing right now. And I only have to get it once every 3 months. And my gynecologist is so awesome that she wants to make it even easier for me and I can get it when I’m in the hospital! She wrote out an order for it so that they can give it to me instead. This last time fell on when I was getting chemo so I had to get it a week ‘late’. It was still fine but kind of a pain. Having to see yet another doctor is difficult for me. So it was awesome of her to put money aside and be like “hey, I’ll make things easier for you, no problem.” That place may annoy me with little things but the doctors there have done so much for me. And I’m one satisfied person of many disappointed of the depo shot. So yeah, don’t always listen to the negative. Every person is different.
At least it hasn’t hit me until now, though. I got to go swimming first.
Why in the world are they in our bathroom? There was a single ant in our kitchen. The rest have been in the bathroom. I just don’t understand.
Midnight is one of my in-laws’ cats and I’ve been trying so hard to get her to trust me and let me pet her. Today she did and she purred! I was so excited. I miss Simba. He was one of their other cats that has a wonky ear. Now he goes back and forth between their neighbors and their house so he is rarely around. He doesn’t like many people but he liked me. Nickie is their last cat. I’ve yet to pet him but he is around less than Simba. One day though, one day. Seriously, I love cats. I love dogs too but no one has them. Horses too. Any animal really. Cats are just popular.
I want to read If I Stay by Gayle Forman but I don’t have a light to read by. :(